I watched New Moon with jl and sl today! I think it was quite engaging, and again I love romance, so this is the kind of shows that I like. Haha.

"Would you marry me?"

"Yes I would!"

I was shouting inside my heart for bella. Hehe.
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"Giving up is not my way of life" , I came across this in yt's blog, recounting abt william tan's story. I think it's a really good driver to motivate one in future, at least it works for me.

Many would be worrying about O results now so here's a quote to help:

Anyone who understands the meaning of life, knows that things have neither a beginning nor an ending. And there is, therefore no point in worrying.
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And this is not bad too, to teach us to listen to the voice of our heart.

Through educated observation, do not allow your supposed experience of life to transform you into a machine. Use that experience to always listen to the voice of the heart. Even if you do not agree witth what the voice is saying, respect it and follow its advice. It knows when totact and when to avoid action.

Like a flowing river
By: Paulo Coelho

A rose dreamed day and night about bees, but no bees ever landed on her petals.

The flower, however, continued to dream. During the long nights, she imagined a heaven full of bees, which flew down to bestow kisses on her. By doing so, she was able to last until the next day, when she opened again to the light of the sun.

One night, the moon who knew of the rose's loneliness asked,

"Arent you tired of waiting?"

"Possibly, but I have to keep trying."

"Why?"

"Because if i dont remain open, I will simply fade away."

At times, when loneliness seems to crush all beauty, the only way to resist is to remain open.



Like a flowing River
By: Paulo Coelho

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point, he asked,

"Are you writing about what we've done? Is it a story about me?"

His grandmother stopped writing the letter and said to her grandson,

I am writing about you, actually, but more importantly, it is the pencil that I;m using.
I hope you would be like this pencil when you grow up.

Intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil. Ir didnt seemed to be very special.

"But it's just like any other pencil I've seen!"

That depends on how you look at things. It has five qualities, which if you manage to hang on will make you a person who is always at peace wirh rhe world.

First quality: You are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand God, and he always guides us according to His will.

Second quality: Now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpener. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he's much sharper. So you, too must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows, because they will make you a better person.

Third quality: the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing. It helps us to keep us on the road to justice.

Fourth quality: what really matters in the pencil is not its wooden exterior but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside us.

Finally, the pencil's fifth quality: it always leaves a mark. In just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action.

The End.


Hello! It's been a really long time since I've last posted! And one thing is for sure, I've lagged behind in computer skills alot. Haha.

My computer broke down a few months ago, which proves not to be an obstacle for me, because I watch tv more than I surf the net. Hehe, but I actually worry quite alot that my typing would be slow next yr and cause myself inconvenience.

So here I am! To start blogging again.

Although I've not been blogging, but I kept a personal diary recently. And I want to share stories like what I sometimes do.

But most importantly, the holiday have been a well-spent one. At least, I think I have had alot of fun. Especially thankful to those who celebrated my birthday with me! Thank you so much. I have had a much memorable birthday, and definitely a happy birthday.

Maybe on your next birthday, try giving thanks to your mum instead? That's why mum told me. She said since it's the day you were born, so you should thank me! Haha, true enough. But we just think that BIRTHDAY is just OUR DAY right. So we should have fun ourselves! Hehe.

Besides, the outings with my clique of friends were equally fun as well! I thought we actually grew closer through these frequent meet-ups.

And not to forget, the mini class gathering which I appreciate! Yup, we have had a good laugh at each other definitely.

And next up, guides camp is coming soon!

Although Zhonghua Girl Guides is officially closing, but nevertheless the fond memories that I have had especially in 07.08,09 would not be forgotten.

But I do feel a little sorry to the sec1s and sec2s. Especially the sec1s, they have merely joined guides for less than a year(excluding holidays, suspension of cca due to h1n1 etc.) and the game has ended.

And guides activity for them now seems to be so limited! What else can they do with such a small population and the unity not built on a strong foundation?

No more open house, cca orientation, or even thinking day. I bet their remaining years as a guide should be the most enduring one. I wish you guys all the best, and hope that you guys would learn to cooperate with each other, appreciate each other's presence and weakness, and create enjoyment amongst yourselves like what the seniors (incl. us!) did.

I believe guides can do it!

Oh, next stop, happiness is such a nice drama! Haha those romantic loveee story that I love. You can try it if you like romance and just romance kind of shows.

August 7th 09.
I've ni idea why but I feel a tinge of sadness today after the sch's ndp celebration. I really miss the school's environment, teachers and my friends. Although there is still 80 days before I leave teh sch, it's gonna be seriously fast, and I really dread such feeling. I want o go back to sec3!

The feeling of being ale to partcipate in everythng esp. guides activities made me reminisce the days of sec3. sec3 and sec4 was the best years of schooling in my life. Because I made friends which I really treasure apart from the group in sec2. I am grateful for a switch of seating arrangement frm sec3 to sec4, because i get to know new ppl like ruiying shubei Uchan ziyi better. But the sec3 friends were equally good as well. I really feel 4e2 have what it takes to be a really wonderful, brilliant and well-liked class.

these few months of schooling was a very fast-paced one, and I felt as though time had brushed past me. i failed to treaure and enjoy my sch days as much as i kknew I had to set my priorities. Nevertheless, chatting with my friends during recesses and laughing our heads off together was a relief apart from the stress.

I feeel disapointed when i got back my prelim results, very very disapointed actually. I once even felt like giving up. hah. because i though i gave in my best shot but just what happend? I fely really really sorry towards the teachers who mput in effort to teach me and yet saw no improvemtn in my eresults. Fortunately, after a few weeks, i feel much much better. and it';s certainly a new bwginning.

Perhaps it was the studying method that went wrong.

And I agree. Amath and emath was not my concern before the prelim as i always thought I was able to handle these 2 subs well, but when the results disapointed me, i really felt upset. but at least i learnt that my math arent that strong, and i should practise more. carelessness was a grave mistake that i should never reapeat again, which apparently is hard to stop and i dont know why. even in my practice papers.

i really tried my best in finishing my homework before the deadline except for today which i felt a little sad and hence dont do much stuff :/

i must continue doing math and prove that i am really capable of clinching A1s FOR BOTH PRELIM2 AND olevels, AND i believe i can. I need to calm down and most imptly learn basic formulas well.

AA THE BEST FOR THE NEXT 80 DAYS. and i really muiss those school days, ):

Hello everyone, it's been very very long since I last blogged. Alot of things have happened during these 2 months and I found it very hard to motivate myself to carry on initially.

On 27th Mar during one of the Friday guides, I dislocated my knee while playing Pepsi-Cola game. Haha it sounds dumb la but it's true, I dont know why also, even the paramedics found it weird! So they suppose that I took a forceful step and disloacted my kneecap. And yes, I think that is how I injured myself. At that instant, I felt everything was still quite the same and I could not feel much of the impact. My thought was "Okay okay I think I dislocated my knee, okay dont worry, relax just sit down near the road so that is it easier.." That was when I first heard the cracking sound of my bones and I felt immense pain, but my thought was that nothing bad would happen as they would push it back for me and I'll be fine very soon, maybe after a day or a few days time. But apparently I was wrong, there was much much more for me to go through.

After I reach the hospital, the doctor started asking me questions but I still felt quite safe under their hands and I did not worry. When I saw my mummy, I even told her that it was okay and not very pain, which was quite true. I knew that the doctors would give my anaesthetic so I did not worry about the pain. All I could assure myself was 'everything would be fine.'

And so they gave me some Nitrogen oxide and I had to breathe in and out to anaethesize myself. I breathed in and out very hard, but the pain was still there, so I tried harder. And finally, the doctors slowly push my leg straight down to move back the position. I dont know if he pull my leg or anything, but I only felt that he tried to straighten my leg, which is rather good at least it's not that painful.

After that, I thought I was fine already, but the nurses came in with some long bandages and a wooden cast. They rested the wooden cast thing on the back of my knee and start wrapping the bandages aroung my leg all the way to my toes. I thought it was quite okay but later did I realise it was going cause be great inconvenience and uncomfortable. It was not a good experience at all. Then the nurse started to teach me how to use the crutches and I tried my best to learn.

After that when I reach home, I was really touched by the encouragement of my friends and I finally broke down uncontrollably. The feeling was very strong and I could not take it anymore. I broke down even when I was eating my dinner. It was also the first time that I cried in front of my family, but I dint think too much. I just could not control.

The two days after my fall was a hard time, I was so afraid that I would cry when the rest visit me on saturday, which fortunately I did not. Bathing was difficult, sleeping was painful and walking was uncomfortable. Sometimes I would ask, why me? And why this happen to me? And what would happen after i go to school? Will I trouble the teachers to switch locations ? And how was I going to climb the stairs? I could not give a good answer to my questions because I really dont know how to.

On the subsequent monday, I went to change my cast to the blue one that most of my friends would know. That one was quite okay, just abit stiff and heavy. But the same question went thru my mind, how to go to sch? how to climb stairs? I really felt very stressed because all these questions were really hard to answer. But after I got a solution to my worries, I finally realise that 'no matter how many doors are shut in your life, there will always be a window for you to go through' .

When wearing the blue cast, I felt some aching at time and it was quite uncomfortable especially when I could do nothing about it since my leg have to be straight all the time. When I feel really upset, I just keep on pushing forward and count for the days to remove my cast. All these would not have been possible without the support of my friends who really helped me out alot. Thank you to everyone of you for any little favour you have done for me that gave me support and motivation!

Although I knew that my leg would not recover totally after the cast is removed, but I expected it to be alot better, but it was not. It was very painful indeed. The kind of helpless when you know your feet is there but it does not want to move was hard to overcome. Everything needs time, and no rush no rush, that is the secret to life. But I still cant do it. I cannot afford to lose any more time when everyone is rushing. When I felt like slowing down, I felt that I am lagging behind. But I once remembered what my grandfather said to me, " Dont worry about how fast others go, just keep at your own pace. No matter if they reach first or are you lagging behind, you will eventually reach there. "

After the few weeks of removing my cast, everything is better and not that painful anymore, just that I feel my knee is unstable at times. But I worry about ppl stepping on my feet because I would fall although I walked as though I am fine. Yup, I wish for a smooth journey in my life as well as everyone out there.

As for my results, I know I have been deproving alot but I will not lose the motivation. Just dont worry about how fast it go as long as you will reach there eventually. I will peresevere on, really really persevere on.

Thank you to my friends who have gave me hope in my recovery process! (:

Today is Saturday. It's a week after the motivational workshop already. So fast! Haha, but we have to admit that we actually spent each day fully already right. Just that sometimes our expectations are a little higher and we hoped to gain more from the 24 hours.


I realised that I wasnt able to concentrate very well after the motivational workshop, esp on Sunday and monday. Maybe because I miss gary too much. Haha! Because he inspired me and this is the first time that so many of us cried right. But on tuesday which is oral, I was still talking to jialing about the motivational workshop! Haha.


My mood on Sunday was totally not there in the morning. I went to bishan to visit my grandparents. And I really just sat on the bench and stare at what my mum was doing. Haha even my uncle felt weird. But after that it was better when my cousin came. We went to the shelter where there is a fish pond which is the place we usually hang out when we are there. I wonder how it will be like when we grow up more. We sent our offerings to our grandparents and chatted a little. The first step is always the hardest to take.

I read from the book yesterday again that death is not that scary. It is possibly the most important thing. We are all walking towards death, but we never know when it is going to touch us and it is our duty, therefore, to look around us, to be grateful for every minute. Whether we like it or not, the angel of death is waiting for us.

"Because of this, I never leave until tomorrow what I can do or experience today- and that includes joy, work obligations, saying I'm sorry when I feel I've offended someone, and contemplation of the present moment as if it were my last." This is quoted from the story which is very true! Yup, live the way you want.

Okay, work hard for what you want to achieve !! :D

Sign off,
Kelly Lim




HAPPY BIRTHDAY CORRINE! :D

The motivational workshop by adam khoo ltg was really good. The trainers were professional and engaging. It's as though they spent each second very well by entertaining us and teaching us or answering to our queries. Yup, thank you gary, melvin and iunia for everything you have taught us!

It's really amazing how they can continue talking for so long even though they have rushed from one school to another. They are really good. No matter how many times they have repeated the stuff they said, or how numb they felt after so much repetitions, they said to us with emotions. Especially Gary who talked to us with feelings, emotions and his heart. His maturity made me realise alot and I understand more. Thank you!

No matter how many times you fall, they are just stepping stones to success, they are learning experiences. Thank you for sharing your life experiences time and again with us, and made us understand life better.

You guys rocks! :D I hope that there will be follow-up session.

Let the sensation follow you till the end of your life. Work hard and strive ONLY for the BEST.

Good luck and best wishes!

Sign off,
Kelly Lim